life
today will be the 2nd full day of my single life. i actually find it ironic that we got together on 10/11/05 and broke up 2/11/08…we were only 8 months away from 3 years. he came over last night and i wanted so much to tell him that i wanted to be with him night and day for the rest of my life but i didn’t want to keep getting hurt and in turn i didn’t want to hurt him. it was a messed up, unhealthy situation. i told him that i wanted to be best friends because we were best friends in our relationship and i think we could be best friends after.
i just hope that he’ll still be there when i get over my fears, insecurities, doubts, and trust issues. i know it sounds selfish…but i wish i never had to let him go…but i also know that he was doubting the relationship too and i only want him to be in it if he’s 110% sure he wants to be…so if that means letting him date other women and getting my heart broken..so be it.
i’m sorry i know tumblr isn’t for sad and sappy stuff like this, rants like this…but its my tumblr so if you don’t want to read it, deal.
